i just hoping to clear my emotion well before the starting of a brand new day.

i admit that everyone have their breaking time,
same as me.
This few weeks or so..
Down is the only word that can use to describe my feeling.
to many people out there,
regardless anyone,

i am not a perfect girl,
i am just a normal girl that you see everyday walking at the street.
in many people eye's,
i knew alot of you will be like always saying why yeewen this why yeewen that.

To a girl that lack of care and concern since young,
self-protection is her only weapon to survive in this world.
somehow, like we agree, the one that appear to be the strongest is always the one that is weak and needed protection the most.

I am not someone that is vuglar before,
believe it or not,
but knowing that being welcoming or polite to people does not do the tricks anymore.
Yes, i admit , saying vuglar is my self-protection.
in the meaning that i wun allow anyone to use any scaratics comment to hurt me.
i am not like before,
i won't allow it to happen to me anymore.
You people can laugh your stupid ass out if you feel that what i say is crap,
but let me tell you,
i can't be weak,
i need to be strong.
this is my style,
i like it and i am happy with it.

somehow,
afer 1 whole day of thinking,
i sort out some thinking,
yes, i feel that my style of talking to people i am comfortable in,
but that are people that cannot take in.
and why must i insist of over protecting myself?
maybe i should learn to void away out the vuglar thingy
and be like before.
i want to feel welcome instead of being isolated at a side.
no matter to benefit me or starbucks peers.

so people.
for once, open your eyes and see my changes,
i will prove to u people that i can do it,
and after that,
make sure that your fingers is clean before you started pointing at me.

(L)girls~
ling ar.. thanks for letting me understand that no one is perfect in this world.
your care and your concern indeed make me feel that i am not a misfit in this world.
it's just another thousand of appercation of me toward god for letting have you 2 by my side:)

flo ar.. your nagging make me feel exist!! without you, my life is surely empty like a shell.
haha..

i believe it just US. now and ongoing forever!

anyway..
thank to gin too..
for all the advices and concern:)
thanks alots!

all right!!!!
drive away depress and welcome happiness!!!