i gottna wake up..
wake up from my stupid childish dream..
i have to stop myself from drowning in anymore.
我相信一定会有一个值得我爱的人．
我不要也不会再让我自己难过了．．
我也不会去讨厌或恨任何人了．．
因为我慢慢的长大了．
♥
Thursday, February 19, 2009
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
曾经有一人告诉过我，
人在高处时很容易忘本的,
当你拥有权力越多的时候，
你应该更懂得谦卑。
可是现在的我们，
好像渐渐看不清楚
我们..自己了...... ):
我真的很累了，
站在权力和名利前面
人。。总是变成一种很可怕的动物。
人在高处时很容易忘本的,
当你拥有权力越多的时候，
你应该更懂得谦卑。
可是现在的我们，
好像渐渐看不清楚
我们..自己了...... ):
我真的很累了，
站在权力和名利前面
人。。总是变成一种很可怕的动物。
♥
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Instead of saying i move on le..why not say i hiding myself from reality D:
Instead of saying that i am happy with my current life..
why not say that i have no choice but to stay like this D:
Instead of pretending..
why not it be real?
Kinda of tired now..
i not as strong as what i suppose to be..
but.. i am trying to be..
sometime it just cannot be contained inside me ..
tell me.. what am i suppose to do?
♥
Thursday, February 12, 2009
The reason I'm here for..
Even though , those things happened last year.
6 months ago, to be exact.
I still couldn't let it go nor forget about what have already happened in the past.
I tried so much to hide my anger, sadness infront of you.
I did it.
I tried to hard to forget about it, when I'm infront of you.
I did it too.
But no matter what, things will never be the same ever again.
No matter how hard I try, the shadows of the past is still here...
At times, I really didn't want to let it go, but I know I have to.
But I can't.
And it's partly because I really hate you and HER.
Someone was right, I just couldn't let go, that explains my behaviour and actions towards you.
Now, I'm closing two eyes.
Kinda numb , tired of all this.
Everyone might think I'm deserve this whatsoever.
but have anyone really put yourself in my shoes and think
why will the hell I get so agitated and paranoid ever since that incident ?
It's not like I wanted it....
I never ever really wanted to say out my feelings , because things will still be back to square one.
So lost....
sigh ...
♥
Monday, February 9, 2009
it's finally proven and reassured (by myself) that I couldn't move on without a schedule,
a plan or definite goals.
I think a lot of us are always stuck in cycles of complaining
when we are damn hectic and wants a little break or holiday.
But when it comes to holidays,
unconsciously, our whole body and brain slacks down...
they had difficulties coming back with that vigour to work.
It's super obvious to me.
Everytime I slack down, without something restricting me,
I just don't feel like doing anything and hope to shun away from everything.
We all know and we call that laziness.
That really blew off my spirit and motivation.
And I hate it.
Everyone is different and could tolerant different things to certain extent.
I just couldn't stand myself slugging around when I know that's a lot to be done.
Probably that is how I often stress myself up so much that I suffocate...
letting go and stepping back don't quite work for me. Or maybe I am stepping back the wrong way.
What on earth is wrong with me to think of all these?
These random thoughts just tangled me today. the whole day. and I wasted a day procrastinating and unwilling to make a move...
Learning how to get out of this sluggish is important. (at least to myself) Otherwise, it will change one's mentally... till someone I can't recognize anymore....
a plan or definite goals.
I think a lot of us are always stuck in cycles of complaining
when we are damn hectic and wants a little break or holiday.
But when it comes to holidays,
unconsciously, our whole body and brain slacks down...
they had difficulties coming back with that vigour to work.
It's super obvious to me.
Everytime I slack down, without something restricting me,
I just don't feel like doing anything and hope to shun away from everything.
We all know and we call that laziness.
That really blew off my spirit and motivation.
And I hate it.
Everyone is different and could tolerant different things to certain extent.
I just couldn't stand myself slugging around when I know that's a lot to be done.
Probably that is how I often stress myself up so much that I suffocate...
letting go and stepping back don't quite work for me. Or maybe I am stepping back the wrong way.
What on earth is wrong with me to think of all these?
These random thoughts just tangled me today. the whole day. and I wasted a day procrastinating and unwilling to make a move...
Learning how to get out of this sluggish is important. (at least to myself) Otherwise, it will change one's mentally... till someone I can't recognize anymore....
♥
Sunday, February 8, 2009
My Valentine Baby (:
♥
This is Creamy,My valentine Baby! Very sweet little girl..
Get well soon.. My pretty little one (:
<3
Get well soon.. My pretty little one (:
<3
well..i am so tired!
Totally no idea why am i working so hard for..
Totally no idea why am i working so hard for..
♥
Friday, February 6, 2009
i just don't get it..
why must people change when time goes by?
Why is it they wanted POWER so much?
why can't everyone just work peacefully ?
Omgg..
working life is indeed complicated!
why must people change when time goes by?
Why is it they wanted POWER so much?
why can't everyone just work peacefully ?
Omgg..
working life is indeed complicated!
