The reason I'm here for..

Even though , those things happened last year.
6 months ago, to be exact.
I still couldn't let it go nor forget about what have already happened in the past.

I tried so much to hide my anger, sadness infront of you.
I did it.
I tried to hard to forget about it, when I'm infront of you.
I did it too.

But no matter what, things will never be the same ever again.
No matter how hard I try, the shadows of the past is still here...

At times, I really didn't want to let it go, but I know I have to.
But I can't.

And it's partly because I really hate you and HER.

Someone was right, I just couldn't let go, that explains my behaviour and actions towards you.

Now, I'm closing two eyes.

Kinda numb , tired of all this.

Everyone might think I'm deserve this whatsoever.
but have anyone really put yourself in my shoes and think
why will the hell I get so agitated and paranoid ever since that incident ?


It's not like I wanted it....

I never ever really wanted to say out my feelings , because things will still be back to square one.

So lost....
sigh ...